So I finally took the time to assess why I want to lose weight: Other than the fact that it's healthy for me, I want to be the best Kassie I can be. I want to inspired people. I want to show I committed something and actually followed through with it. And I want to learn to love myself throughout this process at any and every stage. (: I'm in the process of setting daily, weekly, and monthly "SMART" goals so I can focus on incremental progress instead of the massive amount of weight I still want to lose. I feel more motivated than ever.
So lately, I feel like I've given up and while I know I haven't, if feels like I'm spinning wheels. I've reevaluated my goals around 3 times and even then I'm having trouble following through. I don't know what my deal is but I'm getting frustrated. I've set myself a goal for focusing on being active instead of results but finding the motivation to do so is becoming progressively difficult. I think I have to take a break and assess why I'm doing this in the first place. I'll update you all with that information..once I figure it out.
For those who follow my blog, I apologize for not updating as diligently as I should have. Lately, my weight loss has become a struggle. I think between a mixture of sodium and not working out as I should, I'm not seeing the results. And honestly, regardless of that, I need to stop focusing on the results. I know I've been told to focus on change and not the results but it finally clicked in my head. I think that setting daily goals will be more beneficial. I haven't figured out what goals I want them to be yet, but I'm leaning towards cardio each day (except Sunday), being consistent with my lifting, and trying to eat well (note: not "clean," but healthier) every day. I just found out that I can do both rugby and boxing, which is really exciting. I can do this. I just have to take my mind off the "big picture," so I've set an attainable goal: I want to be able to fit into the sweatshirt I got last year. It has always felt snug and this year, I want it to feel nice and loose (: I have a few weeks before I go to the fair so I can do this. Not a weight goal. <3 I just have to focus on staying active and eating well.
Well, guys. Today marks the second week of the weight loss challenge and honestly? The first week went terribly. Between getting adjusted to school food (i.e: ALL YOU CAN EAT DINING HALL ACCESS) and classes, I've been struggling. My weight has crept back up to 183, though I'm not sure if it's from food. Probably a mixture of water weight and food. On a happy note, I'm lifting again! YAY. Rugby season is back and I'm so excited. I'm not going to post this month's measurements because they are pretty much identical to last month's. The only difference is my waist is now a 34 instead of a 35 and my hips are 41 instead of a 41.5. Crazy shit. But it's time to get on my high horse. I've got this. Here is a picture comparison below. The one in the pants is from last month and the shorts are this month.
Well, I've moved back into my dorm and it looks great! I Now I'm back in the realm of unlimited dining hall access. And gym access. I'm trying to establish how to start my challenge and admittedly, I went extremely overzealous yesterday with eating. This is a learning experience; trial and error. But I will figure it out and I will keep you updated. My challenge starts Monday, which I'm super excited about. I determined and confident I shall win. I hope. Nay, I KNOW. But for now, let's take a look-see at my room, shall we?
Well guys, it's that time again. Time to join another weight loss challenge hosted by good ol' Bodybuilding.com. Same concept as the previous one. 6 weeks to make yourself look amazing. And this time? I'm gonna win, dammit. Between school, (hopefully) having a job, and rugby, it won't be easy but I will make this happen. I'm too close to burn out now. Below are my "before" pictures. The challenge starts on August 25th. Let's make awesome things happen.
Well guys, I finally went to the beach! It was amazing and I actually wore my bikini. Initially, I was insecure and nervous. However, as the day went on, I became more comfortable and began to accept that I look okay and I should enjoy myself so I did! Below are the pictures my friend took of me.
In my almost 20 years of life, I've never worn a bikini. I was always "too big." My mom even told me to cover up and a put on a tankini (not hating because those things are cute) but today I decided to muster up the courage and try on a bikini top. One that covers my fat but accentuates my now forming waist. Not only did I try it on, but I bought it. On sale, I might add. I'm not where I wanna be but I'm damn sure on my way there.
So it's time for the monthly update and I'm pretty content. My body fat dropped from 36% down to 33.7%, though my weight is going up, most likely due to salt and water retention from weight lifting. But below are this months measurements and progress pictures. **Not: There is no side comparison and these pictures are 2 weeks apart so there is a subtle change**
Measurements from 7/6/14 Neck: 14.5 Shoulders: 44.5 Chest: 38 Waist: 37 Hips: 42 Upper Arm (R): 14 Upper Arm (L): 14 Thigh (R): 23 Thigh (L): 24 Calf (R): 15 Calf (L): 15 Wrist: 6 Forearm: 9.75 This month 8/3/14 Neck: 14 Shoulders: 45.25 Chest: 38 Waist: 35 Hips: 41.5 Upper Arm (R): 14.5 Upper Arm (L): 14.5 Thigh (R): 23.5 Thigh (L): 24.5 Calf (R): 14 Calf (L): 14 Wrist: N/A Forearm: 9.75 |