Well I didn't burn 2000+ calories this past week but I haven't been on it as much. I got my work outs in and ate right but I don't feel like my head and heart was in it as much as it should have been. Hopefully I can do better this week. I wish I could see the results I want because at this rate, I'm not winning a damn thing. I went to the gym this morning and got the "major" (compound) lifts done but I kind of just sat fuck it after that. I don't know what's going on with my drive lately but I'm just not in it. But from what I've learned over my past few years of losing weight, you cannot just give up. You can however, take a break and honestly, I'm thinking that would be the most beneficial thing for me to do right now. Picking up a new job while trying to balance working out is difficult but not impossible. And the fact that I have to do the same thing with school means that it has to be done. But sometimes, one must just take a step back and relax in order to move forward. There is no way in holy hell that I'm going to win this competition but I know I can try to after I take this brief break. During that time, I will continue to post things and keep you all updated and continue to persevere no matter what.
There is no denying how important music is to a work out. Or, well, I definitely can't deny it after my work out yesterday, resulting in my leaving my headset at home. Trying to get hype and pumped listening to the "Golden Oldies" in the gym did not suffice. I don't know how I managed to complete my work out. Music is critically important for me, at least. It gets me through those last few painful reps. It pushes me when I feel like I'm going to give up. It drives me to do my best. So let's talk about my ideal work out mix:
I love anything with a heavy bass or electronic beat. Point. Blank. Period. (Heh, period.) Anything with a beat that can match the pulse of my heart rate after a good set of sprints is something I'd most likely go with. My best friend makes some pretty dope mixes so he's a great resource. What do you all like to listen to? Let me know! (: During my weight loss, I've rarely encountered a "hater" in person. However, on many social networking sites, people behind keyboards sure are high and mighty. After posting a shirt I wanted (it said: "Who needs big tits when you're fit like this"), an idiot commented saying that I'm not fit and I should just stop kidding myself.
This isn't the first time someone online has been an out right asshole to me. The phrase "haters are my motivators" is spewed out constantly and for me personally, I get no motivation from someone being a jerk. Honestly, the shit you say hurts my feelings. But I'm too big of a person to let your comments derail me. I'm not changing my life to appease YOU, I'm doing it for me. If that intimidates you, that isn't my problem. And honestly, when I get the body I desire, you're not gonna know what to say or do because those words you threw out are going to be the words that shut you up. Today I've burned over 600 calories in one day. I've NEVER done that in the last 2 years I've been losing weight. Today I OVERCAME my hesitation and persevered through. Weight loss is easy; calories in has to be less than the calories out.
MENTAL weight, however, is a full on bitch. What is mental weight, you may ask? Mental weight is the nagging voice in your head telling you that you can't. You lungs are burning and your legs feel like they are going to give out therefore you can't continue. THAT is mental weight. And she and I have an awful relationship. I'm filing for divorce and she's packing her shit and getting the hell out. Today I pushed myself. Now did I complete this 600 calorie burn in one sitting? No. But I WILL. All my life I've been in a battle with myself and the limits I've put up for myself. The barriers I have assumed I cannot break down. The goals I believe can never be accomplished. To quote Miley Cyrus, I WILL come in like a wrecking ball and knock down every single wall I've set up for myself with a smashing force. Why? Because I know I can. And you can too, whether it's a weight loss goal or any other obstacle. You can overcome it, as well. Here are some helpful tips I implement into my personal life to help me push through my mental weight loss barriers (minus group exercise. I hate flopping around looking like jello): http://www.everydayhealth.com/weight-pictures/ways-to-mentally-prepare-for-weight-loss.aspx#/slide-1 http://www.shape.com/fitness/workouts/10-things-youre-not-doing-gym-should-be/slide/4 http://inspiredsoulblog.com/10-ways-to-push-yourself-through-a-workout/ http://greatist.com/fitness/23-ways-push-through-tough-workout Well the day is now upon us. Today marks the first day of the 2014 6 Week Best Self Challenge. A few of my friends knew I was interested in doing this and I've already started. For those of you who don't know what it is (or didn't see my second blog post), I'm going to break it down for you:
In the course of 6 weeks, all participating members of the 6 week challenge, held by Bodybuilding.com, compete to see who can achieve the most substantial change in their body composition in 6 week. It is NOT a "weight loss" challenge. The grand prize is $10,000 with lesser prizes awarded to runner ups. What are my goals for this challenge? I want to feel good in my own skin. I want to be able to take off my shirt and like what I see. I love myself as a person but there are things I want to change about myself. I don't even care if I win (though, that would be AWESOME). I want to end this summer stronger than I started, physically fit for rugby and with more confidence than I've ever had. I plan on getting a tattoo, as well in honor of my deceased friend and accomplishing my goals so having the area I want it tightened up is imperative. Being able to buy a bikini for the first time, like ever, would be pretty sweet also. And there IS this one pair of leggings I want...Okay, okay maybe I want a few more things and you know what? That's okay. In January there was a challenge similar to this but twice as long. It was a 12 week challenge. I went into it with the intention that it would be easy and the weight would just come off. Needless to say, I fell off that train with no hopes of getting back on. This go 'round, I'm going to complete the entirety of the challenge. Between January and this month, I wasn't convinced their was no progress because I fell off the wagon so badly. Well, I found my original pictures from January and the ones I took for this challenge and I see a difference. Not a HUGE one, but it is there. Now if I can accomplish that without working out diligently, imagine how this challenge and the end of the summer will be. I'll be updating my pictures weekly, not only to let you guys know how it's going, but also to hold myself accountable. **Note: I've NEVER revealed myself like this to people I know (outside of my Instagram) so I'm a bit nervous but if I'm making my weight loss public, I have to commit and not cut corners. But be nice, haha** |