So I finally took the time to assess why I want to lose weight: Other than the fact that it's healthy for me, I want to be the best Kassie I can be. I want to inspired people. I want to show I committed something and actually followed through with it. And I want to learn to love myself throughout this process at any and every stage. (: I'm in the process of setting daily, weekly, and monthly "SMART" goals so I can focus on incremental progress instead of the massive amount of weight I still want to lose. I feel more motivated than ever.
So lately, I feel like I've given up and while I know I haven't, if feels like I'm spinning wheels. I've reevaluated my goals around 3 times and even then I'm having trouble following through. I don't know what my deal is but I'm getting frustrated. I've set myself a goal for focusing on being active instead of results but finding the motivation to do so is becoming progressively difficult. I think I have to take a break and assess why I'm doing this in the first place. I'll update you all with that information..once I figure it out.
For those who follow my blog, I apologize for not updating as diligently as I should have. Lately, my weight loss has become a struggle. I think between a mixture of sodium and not working out as I should, I'm not seeing the results. And honestly, regardless of that, I need to stop focusing on the results. I know I've been told to focus on change and not the results but it finally clicked in my head. I think that setting daily goals will be more beneficial. I haven't figured out what goals I want them to be yet, but I'm leaning towards cardio each day (except Sunday), being consistent with my lifting, and trying to eat well (note: not "clean," but healthier) every day. I just found out that I can do both rugby and boxing, which is really exciting. I can do this. I just have to take my mind off the "big picture," so I've set an attainable goal: I want to be able to fit into the sweatshirt I got last year. It has always felt snug and this year, I want it to feel nice and loose (: I have a few weeks before I go to the fair so I can do this. Not a weight goal. <3 I just have to focus on staying active and eating well.
Well, guys. Today marks the second week of the weight loss challenge and honestly? The first week went terribly. Between getting adjusted to school food (i.e: ALL YOU CAN EAT DINING HALL ACCESS) and classes, I've been struggling. My weight has crept back up to 183, though I'm not sure if it's from food. Probably a mixture of water weight and food. On a happy note, I'm lifting again! YAY. Rugby season is back and I'm so excited. I'm not going to post this month's measurements because they are pretty much identical to last month's. The only difference is my waist is now a 34 instead of a 35 and my hips are 41 instead of a 41.5. Crazy shit. But it's time to get on my high horse. I've got this. Here is a picture comparison below. The one in the pants is from last month and the shorts are this month.
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